Errmm. Yup/ I do miss him so much. Him. I mean.... BABA. My dad.
I don't know why do I keep thinking about him lately. Its quite awkward actually cause I've almost forget about him. I thought he never existed in my life. Ya Allah, berdosanya aku.
Ermm. Orang kata, kalau kita ingat dekat orang tu, orang tu ingat dekat kita jugak. Is it possible that he's remembering me at this moment?!? Err I don't think so! We never met for years. Its unbelievable right? But its true. What a sad life!
What makes me even sad is, I don't know what should I do when I miss him.
Should I call him?
Should I send an email to him?
Should I look at his photo?
Sometimes I feel that this world is so cruel and unfair. Though people who has his father's death still can visit his father's grave. But me?????? Is this what we called LIFE?!? Do you think it is fair??
Astaghfirullah.
However, I do believe in Allah. Allah maha adil dan Allah hanya akan menguji umatNya mengikut kemampuan umatNya. Even I couldn't call him, email him or look at his photo, but all I can do is.. DOA. I will always pray that Allah will fogive all his mistakes and open his heart to be more responsible. I do hope that I can meet Baba someday. I will wait for that moment. I wanna hug and kiss him! I miss him. Allah maha mengetahui apa yang aku rasa. Wajah Baba sentiasa terbayang dalam ingatan :( I never tell Mama about this. I am glad and grateful to have Mama in my life. I don't know what makes her so strong to face all this kind of situation.
FYI, muka Ayu saling tak tumpah macam Baba!
Ini lah yang dinamakan takdir. Sudah tertulis takdir aku sebegini dan aku harus menerimanya.
Semoga satu hari nanti akan terubat rindu yang dah lama aku pendam.
p/s; aku yakin dia tak pernah melupakan aku dalam doanya :D
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