alhamdulillah syukur :)

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah. Syukur atas rezeki yang di kurniakan. Hari nie, 21st March. Tarikh keramat bagi aku. Alhamdulillah. Tak dapat aku nk describe kan perasaan aku nie. Betapa gembira dan terharunya. Aku berjaya mendapat straight As dalam SPM!!! Syukur sangat.

Berkat usaha dan doa semua orang. Akhirnya Allah kurniakan aku semua A dalam SPM. Akhirnya aku dapat bagi mama aku semua A. Sebab before nie, UPSR aku 4A1B, PMR 7A1B. Selalu je tercicir. Tapi kali nie, Allah makbulkan doa aku. Alhamdulillah.

Terima kasih banyak2 kepada kaum keluarga, guru2, saudara mara dan rakan2. Tak lupa juga buat boypren. Thanks for your doa and support. Tak tau nak balas jasa korang macam mana.

Akhirnya.. Aku mampu membuat mama menangis kegembiraan bila keputusan SPM aku diumumkan. Mama join naik pentas sekali tau tak! Haha. Alhamdulillah ;)

Untuk adik2 yang bakal menduduki peperiksaan SPM, teruskan usaha. Jangan mudah berputus asa. Dan jangan pernah lupa maha Pencipta. InsyaAllah, pasti boleh.

a day before :(

As we all know that the SPM 2011 result will be announced on 21st of March. 

But. . . . . . . . . . . Today is already 20th March.

Ya Allah! Sehari je lagi! Apa-apa pun, semua aku berserah kepada Yang Maha Esa. Aku redha dengan rezeki yang diberikan. Usaha telah aku lakukan yang termampu. Tawakal sudah. Dan kini aku hanya menunggu hasilnya. 

Aku agak cuaks sebab of course mama and family aku letak harapan yang tinggi since aku nie the eldest sister. 

Errmm. Ahhh I have no idea what else to say. Haha.

p/s: just be grateful with whatever result that may be mine :D

I miss him :(

Assalamualaikum and hye!
Errmm. Yup/ I do miss him so much. Him. I mean.... BABA. My dad.
I don't know why do I keep thinking about him lately. Its quite awkward actually cause I've almost forget about him. I thought he never existed in my life. Ya Allah, berdosanya aku.

Ermm. Orang kata, kalau kita ingat dekat orang tu, orang tu ingat dekat kita jugak. Is it possible that he's remembering me at this moment?!? Err I don't think so! We never met for years. Its unbelievable right? But its true. What a sad life!

What makes me even sad is, I don't know what should I do when I miss him.
Should I call him? I don't even have his number :(
Should I send an email to him? I don't even have his email address :(
Should I look at his photo? I don't even have his photo! :(
Sometimes I feel that this world is so cruel and unfair. Though people who has his father's death still can visit his father's grave. But me?????? Is this what we called LIFE?!? Do you think it is fair??
Astaghfirullah.

However, I do believe in Allah. Allah maha adil dan Allah hanya akan menguji umatNya mengikut kemampuan umatNya. Even I couldn't call him, email him or look at his photo, but all I can do is.. DOA. I will always pray that Allah will fogive all his mistakes and open his heart to be more responsible. I do hope that I can meet Baba someday. I will wait for that moment. I wanna hug and kiss him! I miss him. Allah maha mengetahui apa yang aku rasa. Wajah Baba sentiasa terbayang dalam ingatan :( I never tell Mama about this. I am glad and grateful to have Mama in my life. I don't know what makes her so strong to face all this kind of situation.

FYI, muka Ayu saling tak tumpah macam Baba!

Ini lah yang dinamakan takdir. Sudah tertulis takdir aku sebegini dan aku harus menerimanya.

Semoga satu hari nanti akan terubat rindu yang dah lama aku pendam.

p/s; aku yakin dia tak pernah melupakan aku dalam doanya :D

#forYOU

Hey. Don't read this post, please. I only dedicated this post to him :(
Dude. I was counting days by days. But I'm not sure hari nie hari yang ke berapa kita tak jumpa. What I am really sure, more than a month we haven't meet each other. It is too bad I think. I know you're living with your family there. But it is not the main reason I guess. Eemm. It's not that I don't understand you, of course I do dear. Yeah, you know that we had a really bad misunderstand recently.  I know you've tried your best by calling me and explain every single thing. But I just need you to be in front of me, talk about it and solve it. Because that's the only thing that can calm myself. Seriously.

I'm not asking you to come and see me that often. But AT LEAST once a month since I know you're very busy with your work. It is fine.
I think I'm very lucky to have some jobs to do so that I will not disturb you every month, day, hour, minute, second, etc. And I know that by getting myself busy is the best way to solve everything, isn't it?

Next week I will get my SPM's result. Either I will get the best result, or even the worse result, I want you to be there. I've applied leave from my boss on 31st. Its Saturday. I really hope that you can come.
PLEASE note this, dude. I just love and miss you so much :D

I'm still ALIVE!

HAHA. After for so looooonnngggg I haven't updated my blog. So yeah, finally! Heee. I got so many things to share actually. But macam dah nak basi je benda yang aku nak cerita tuu. Hihi ;p

Okay la, I just wanna share with you guys about the Volunteer Orientation Programme (VOP) that I've attended last month at Petrosains. The programme was damn AWESOME!

At the end of the programme, we were devided according to our department. And guess what, I've been selected to PETTVO department. PETTVO stands for Petronas Twin Tower Volunteer or known as Sky Bridge. Haha. I was very excited cause I've been selected to the department that I want to!
Isn't that cool? Hehe ;p

*with some of my colleagues at PETTVO*

ILOVEMYLIFE!!

Petrosains VOP Feb 2012